从一个最有资格的人
到一个最没资格的人

看到每个人可以跟你讲电话
我只是在一旁看

呵呵
是我可笑吧 :')

我
讨厌了
八月......

它让我失去很多东西
亲人, 爱人?
我在这瞬间 找不到了他们

还以为会是一个美好的月份
还有一个月上大学
还有一个月就要完成家人对我的期望
还有一个月可以见到他

但
这个月却让我失去了所有所有的一切

我最爱的外公 还没来得及等我毕业 就离开了我们
我的心碎了...
* 在这个时候的我 却让我看到了你跟她的暧昧
我的心 破了

很坚强的告诉自己
一切都会变好的
要好好读书

最重要告诉自己
要珍惜!
应为我们真的真的永远不懂下一秒会发生什么事

我累了
好累哦

一位好朋友告诉我
这已经是最糟糕 最痛苦的事情了
没有什么事还比这个月我面对的还要严重了
只要可以度过这个
以后什么事都可以面对!

加油
加油加油加油!!

*要永远相信 雨后一定有彩虹!
                     

生命

我其实是很幸福的
条件是我不应该想太多 不必要的东西就好
我一定可以做到的
加油!! <3 p="">

终于在30.4.2013从kmpp毕业了... 😄
虽然不懂我的成绩是不是我要的...
但是还是希望我可以拿到我要的成绩...

5.1.2013
我们的三个月纪念...
我们一起去了gurney走走...
原本想要看戏的...
但因时间不适合..所以就只是走走看看谈谈天而已...^.^
谢谢你, 让我过了一个很开心的晚上... <3 p="">但是伤心的是他那天过后就要回Johor了... T.T

本来打算如果得到USM的interview, 不会去面试的...
但是 ~~ 因为很多原因真的不懂应不应该去了... T.T
其实 ~ 真的让我心烦了... >.<

我真的是很想进UKM的...
是真的真的很想...
但如果得了USM就进不了UKM了... T.T

但是, 还好家人都很支持我的想法...
就连他 ~ 都说会支持我...
所以又要到我做决定的时候了...

加油吧!! 要相信我是可以的!! 💓

If you are not taking any of my advice...
then...
please don't have to ask me what you have to do and what happened...

I am happy at first this morning...
who won't be happy when we heard that our sister got straight A's in her SPM!!
Good job sis!!
You always made me proud of you!! ♥
although you got some subjects that you are not satisfies with it...
but let me tell you...you already GREAT!!

Second thing...
Should be saying sorry to my STPM friend...
I didn't ask about your result...
because I really scare that I have nothing to comfort you guys..
sorry for being so self-fish... T.T

Then this thing happened...
without any sign...
without any expectation...
it happened again and again...
or should I say it never stop because someone don't want it to be stopped..
but I do want it to stop...
I'm just tired of it...
Really really tired...mentally and physically...
I already learnt to put it aside...
so
PLEASE don't get me involved it in again...
there is nothing to do with me actually...
totally NO....

Stress of homework and syllabus....
suddenly feel the stress in chemical practical class today...
doing pass year without any notes...
feel that I have many things haven't study...
many things haven't done...
many things don't understand...
feel I'm so useless...T.T

ps: thanks for staying by my side all the time... ♥

回家的感觉真好!! ^.^
但太多太多的诱惑了... 哈哈 😄

Going back to college few more hours later...
Hope everything going smooth and nice this week!! ^.^

Heard that things went well this few days I'm not in college...
I do really hope that they can continue to be friends...
Nooo!! Is we can continue to be best friends in college!!
I really hope that!! and I can see that things went nice so far...
Glad of it!!
This is what I want..I want peace and peace from everyone!! ♥

可能是最近发生太多事情了...
爱上了一个人独自留在宿舍房里做功课, 累了就睡一下, 闷了就上网 sms 的日子...
喜欢一个人静静的思考...
对不起, 就让我自私那么的一次...
什么都不管, 什么都不理... >.<

I do really hope that things will get back normal soon...
I don't think I have the right to scold or say anything bad about him or her...
I do really hope that they can know to think before they open their mouth and tell the story or maybe I need to use the word 'spread'??
It's not fair to the others as well...
You know nothing then you blame him or her for 'making things worst'!!
But it's actually not from him or her?? Who knows?? Definitely you don't know about it!!
I don't like to see people with those kind of view...why are you making me to see you like that!!

And that person who spread the rumours!! If you can just keep it as a secret then just keep it instead of spreading it of!!
That actually make yourself both of them get hurts...
Now the other one that care of us also get hurt although he is not involved in this situation!!
Please DO think about who are you telling and how reliable are them...
Are they going to keep it for you?? Who are you to them?? Please THINK!!
I'm really frustrated about it!!
Sorry to say..but you did make things worst now!!

I wish I don't know about what is happening now!!
Things happen one by one...When it is going to end!! >.<
Do you think I'm happy with it!!
Everyday I saw my friends with a sad face...I will be sad and worry too!!
Please be good to me...Please...

ps: thanks him for staying with me and listen to my nonsense all the time because I know he is not that guy that will care about what is happening now..thanks.. ♥

Homework!!
Uncountable homework!!
Past years, tutorials, practical jotter and many many more...
Pressure seems like drop on my shoulder and I don't feel like doing anything now...
Maybe I'm lazy but I think that I'm tired of everything now...that's all I can say...
I'm just lazy to figure it out what can I do now...

*Please be good to me...Don't make me feel that it's a waste of time to handle this kind of problems and study..

Still
Life Goes On
Will try to make things better
And I know I can!! ♥

累??
我不懂, 感觉不到了......
我不懂我做错什么, 只觉得自己做错...
是对, 还是错?
我开始感觉不到了....

累了...
真的累了...
朋友,学业,选科...它们 真的把彻底的搞垮了...
我从来都没有过这种感觉...
呵呵, 觉得自己很可笑...
新的一年才开始第二天 竟然会有这样的感觉...
我不喜欢这种感觉...
但不能否认它...

突然有种莫名其妙的感觉...
不知道为什么自己会有这样的感觉...
他在我心中是什么地位? 我不懂...
我在他心中又是什么地位? 我也不懂...
我更不懂我自己在想什么...
有时在想 ~ 不懂是不是比较好...
如果是比较好, 那我宁愿不想懂...
只希望我们的关系一直这样下去...
应该能维持吧..

朋友, 知心的能有几个??
能谈得来的又有几个??
你不喜欢她的性格..
难道就不能原谅吗?? 老实说, 我能原谅...
我只是不想把我们的关系搞得更糟...
我可以任你讲, 任你讽刺, 任你嘲笑...
但我可能忍不了你的任性和你冷待地对待...
我只能说对不起...
真的是对不起...

学业, 我一向来都不跟人家比...
我一直以来就知道我比不过任何人...
成绩不好, 做功课慢的我...
让我自己对自己不满意起来...
想跟自己说对不起...
让自己这样懒惰...

选科, 我希望我可以拿到我想要的...
也希望父母会支持..
只希望这样了...

有时候很累时 ..
不知不觉中, 回想起中学的朋友...
想起一起读书, 做功课, 考试的日子...
老实说, 还蛮想念的...
写着写着, 眼泪又不知不觉地流下了...
可能真的是想念你们了吧... ♥